In his book, Playing from the Second Chair, Rick Clendenen states:
Humility is not thinking less of ourselves; it is simply thinking of ourselves less. It is putting the needs of others above our own.
Somehow I managed to mash together the above in my mind. For several days, I went about reminding myself that "Humility is not thinking less of ourselves; it is thinking more of others."
I once heard someone say that stagefright is a form of pride. We mask it as fear of speaking, but it's really a fear of failing in front of others. Our focus is on us - not on the ones who need our messsage.
Humility, remember, focuses more on others.
I remember the first time I taught at a district event. About a hundred people from a dozen or so churches were gathered, and I was starting to get nervous. I then remembered two things:
- Stagefright is a form of pride.
- The message is key - the message matters more than my own discomfort.
I recited 1 Thess 5:24 under my breath (
Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it.) Reminding myself that the message is key, I focused and delivered it with confidence.
I find it interesting that by focusing on others instead of myself, my nerves calmed and my confidence increased.
I humbled myself in the sight of the Lord, and the Lord lifted me up (see
James 4:10). I did not demean myself - I just focused on others. The Lord lifted me by giving me confidence and anointing to deliver the message.